Master was talking to me about my blogging goals. And if I’m meeting them.
And… I felt I was.
I defended my position and got a little sulky over his questions. He laughed and told me I was freaking over nothing, and not to stress myself out. If I’m happy with what I’m doing, that’s fine. He was just checking in.
I was disappointed with my reaction to him, though. I think it was fine that he asked “Do you think you’re doing X?” and I replied“Yes, and here’s why.” That was fine, and I don’t think I messed up in answering him or anything. BUT, I didn’t try to consider his point of view fully. I didn’t stop to think “He wouldn’t be asking if he didn’t see SOMETHING wrong. Take a minute, think, figure out what you could be doing better.”
I think part of my issue is that I’ve gotten comfortable here, and I haven’t gone out of my way to make my points clear. I’ve just told stories and shared thoughts, answered questions without sharing WHY they are important to me.
I’ve said in my About Chloe page:
Everything I say is colored. Colored by love and devotion, and colored by my belief there is a path leading to harmonious, unbiased, and true acceptance of power exchange relationships. My goal here is to try to find that path. I believe there is a way to talk about and explore power exchange that is welcoming for those who practice it, those who are curious about it, and those who raise eyebrows or even condemn it. If human history has taught us anything, it’s that promoting diversity, acceptance, and equal treatment may be difficult, but it’s always been worth it.
I’m here to talk, to think, and if I’m lucky, to gain a little perspective along the way.
This blog is not just about me sharing stuff with the like-minded. Don’t get me wrong – I LOVE my like-minded blogging friends. I cannot express how much it means to me to have been welcomed here in my small corner of the BDSM blogging world. (I’d look creeeeepy if I tried to express it.)
You guys make my world a brighter, funnier, better place to be.
But it’s not JUST about me feeling cozy. Well, it wasn’t meant to be that selfish.
My blog is an open invitation for readers to be involved. You can ask harsh questions, difficult questions, off-topic questions – whatever you want. I ADORE when people pose good questions. You can comment too – that’s why the comments are open and why these entries are not private so only my Master can read them.
I don’t blog privately because I want you guys here – lurkers, regulars, friends – everyone. But you don’t have to be an audience. Some of you already comment, or ask questions, and thank you guys. Everyone else, feel free to join in. And, if you don’t want to? That’s okay too.
Sara is great for questions, for the record. And I think one of the reasons she is great for that (aside from her gorgeous mind) is that she has a different dynamic than I do. I think the fact that she is not 100% like-minded gives us an awesome chance to learn from and about each other, as well as learn about ourselves.
So part of my goal here was to get people who are maybe curious about my lifestyle (or even against it, or doubtful, or think I’ve got some underlying issue and think I’m mistaken, etc.) or people who are against it, to engage in discussion. Not attacks, but discussion.
I guess right now, I’m extending an invitation for everyone to involve themselves as much as they want, so I can address ONE of the parts of my blogging goals that I may be falling short on.