Comments on: Screw It, I Choose Punishment

By: doubleknot

doubleknot — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 03:43:44 +0000

I’m with Tapestry. In our relationship, the punishment is feared. I mean, I shake, I can’t eat cuz my stomach feels ill before a punishment. So, there is no choice. I obey. Period!

If you had no choice, ie, were unable to avoid breaking that rule, that’s different than just asserting your will and saying “to hell with it. I don’t feel like following that rule. I’ll take my chances on the punishment.” It doesn’t sound like you did that at all.

I don’t think you have to hone your worry skills about it anymore.

By: Tapestry

Tapestry — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 15:42:57 +0000

omg – Chloe ended a sentence with a preposition!
I’m pretty sure that’s a language rule broken…

If you break a rule in order to gain a punishment, then perhaps the punishment needs to change. My Master doesn’t think punishment should be enjoyable so it can be tough to punish a masochist like me.

But if you break a rule because you just don’t care, then in all honesty I think there’s a much more serious problem.

I don’t think it sounds like you broke a rule for either of those reasons. I’m sure if there was a problem with your choice your Master would have handled it differently. As it is, you made a choice He seems to approve of, so perhaps you could just pat yourself on the back and say “Good job slave!”

‘Cause you did good Chloe.

By: Sara

Sara — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 11:13:18 +0000

Chloe, I think intent makes all the difference…i.e. “Screw it I am break the rule!”, and “OMG, I broke the rule!” It is all about honoring the spirit of your agreements and your attitude while doing so. When it comes down to it, the affect on the relationship of going against him with intent does the damage, most often not the actual deed or the resultant consequences of that deed. I hope that wasn’t too convoluted to make sense….

By: M:e

M:e — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 07:46:44 +0000

I was smiling at so much of this posting. I sometimes think ‘worry’ and ‘overthinking’ comes built in to a subbmissive’s emotional DNA. So many of us seem to do it that you’re in extremely good company.

From all I’ve read here, I can’t imagine you ever going from feeling you had no choice but to break a rule, to willingly doing so because you could, or you just couldn’t be bothered.

I imagine that ‘having to’ has happened to many of us, certainly me. Mine was around sending a text at a certain time each day only I couldn’t because I was at the hospital dealing with an emergency. He understood the choice I’d had to make, understood the circumstances, though there was a conversation about what he’d have expected me to do in that case. That conversation somehow helped.

As for short postings, god I feel like I’ve written an epic this last two days. Sometimes all that thinking just has to find a way out doesn’t it?

love and hugs xxx